God the FATHER

God the FATHER, the perfect FATHER.
the way the enemy manipulated the circumstances of life had shaped God into a person that i had to be good enough to keep in my life, that was only available when He wanted to be, that i would have to work hard to keep interested in my life.. and this made me feel like all the struggles i have in life i had to overcome on my own to make God want to be apart of my life.. that when i messed up, i wasn't worthy of His presence.. that my life, my issues, my prayers weren't important.. that my focus needs to be doing and being something God would be proud of or interested in, worthy of his affections.. God wasn't a lover, a comforter, a provider, or a forgiver.. i was wrong. i've learned that God wants to walk along side of me, he wants to help me, wants to love me, wants to bring me joy.. this is what causes me to want to love, worship, and live for God... it's not about living for God to earn anything.. that's what makes religion so boring and unattractive.. it's all about love..God loves me.. and i love Him... i sometimes still get into the wrong mindset of who God is..but thank goodness i know the truth of God, and he helps draw me back into the understanding of who He really is, God my Heavenly Father. :)